Wednesday, May 10, 2006

funk

for at least a week now, I've been in a weird funk. I can't figure out what's up but it's like a low-grade fever that's sapping me of what little positive energy I've usually got. And the dreams... ugh, the dreams I've been having SUCK. Mo acting all weird until I figure out that he's cheating on me. Or, my dad's still alive and I'm trying to run away from home, no matter what he does, how loving and patient he is. (Oh, I guess even *I* can figure this one out, now that I see it in writing. I'm so dense sometimes)

The situation back home gets uglier by the day. Maybe that's poisoning my soul a bit. People always ask me how I could leave such an island "paradise". Well, you can leave when your heart is broken, when you realize that those who are obvious candidates for a diagnosis of Narcissistic Personality Disorder are the only ones who ever get elected to higher office. It's not paradise when crazy people are running the show.

Anyway, this is where I'm at today. Maybe I'll get a good night's sleep now that I've vented.

2 comments:

Heather Bea said...

I hope you are still not in your funk. It really is sad what has happened in PR. I hope that things work out for your country and that one day you will be able to take your boys there. To show them who they are.

Anonymous said...

Have you gotten out of your funk yet?

I hate it when that happens. I send you strength and healing and just stamina to deal with the funkiness of life.

Sweetchaos